I am shivering so violently right now. And as hard as I try I can't stop it.
I keep telling myself it's gonna be ok. That I will be able to move on despite what just happened, that I am stronger than what I am projecting right now. But my body doesn't seem to agree.
I feel so cold. My hands clammy to the touch. Hands which are yearning to grab on to something that they are so used to holding. I can almost feel their sense of abandonement. No, I do feel it, because that's exactly what I feel right now. Abandoned. Lost. Directionless. I don't know what to do now. I only know one thing now.
I just lost my handphone.