Sunday, November 30, 2003

Went to watch a German movie (The english title is "Us") on Friday with a couple of friends. It kinda sucked , it was about the life of this group of working adults in Berlin, there was no plot whatsoever. But the really hot German gal in the movie bared her boobs so that was worth some of the 9 bucks I paid. But everyone went back after the movie which was a little disappointing, was hoping to talk cock a bit longer with one of them whom I don't really get to see that often.

Other than that my weekend was a total waste, I spend it at home playing CM4, taking Chelsea and practically thrashing everyone else in the league. Yes I got no life. I was thinking of taking up roller-blading and at least try to get some exercise over the weekends but can't find anyone who would wanna do it with me on a regular basis at East Coast or something. Any takers?

Been really busy this week. No mood to blog.

Today : 4/10

Thursday, November 27, 2003

If you noticed I dun have that emotion crap thingy at the top of my blog (that tells people how I am feeling) anymore; don't know why I put it up there in the first place, I never update it that often anyway as it's too much of a hassle. Instead I am just gonna put like a rating out of 10 for every day. 1 being a total sucky day where i feel like commiting suicide , 10 will be a super happy day, like the day I lose my virginity. But dun expect a 10 anytime soon, for like the next 10 years.

Speaking of days, had a pretty good day But I just got hold of some information that I am not sure if it was best for me to know. Like I realised recently, sometimes ignorance is bliss. Oh well guess I just have to wait and see how it all folds out.

I been meeting this gal from my workplace a couple of times on the way back home; I was introduced to her once but the problem is I totally forgot her name and I was too embarassed to ask. There was this one time I was talking to her and she had her badge around her chest area, hanging by her neck. So I tried to sneak a peek at the badge to see if I can see her name while I was listening to her. The thing is I think she caught me looking and probably thought I was like checking out her boobs or something. Sigh this happens to me way too often.

Today :6/10
Listened to : Dredg, White Stripes

Wednesday, November 26, 2003

Heh as much as I hate it sometimes I tend to make assumptions about people based on previous experiences. One is that most women are pretty scared when it comes to fiddling with their computers; they get so worried that they gonna screw it up by installing software. So imagine my surprise when a gal I was talking to couple days ago was actually installing freeware that I was recommending on the spot and trying them out! And heh yeah I never would imagine that she was the type who would be interested in that kinda stuff, that was my mistake. Heh but it was a really pleasant surprise....too bad she's taken. :(
Anyway check out the following freeware that I recommend highly for any PC.

1. Irfanview
Free graphics editor/viewer that I swear by. Allows you to scroll through pictures in a directory, as well as very simple to use resizing functions, even allows batch resizing. very useful when you wanna resize the whole lot of pics from your digicam.

2. Mozilla Browser and Email Client 1.5
Much better alternative to Internet Explorer. Kills pop-up windows, password/form manager, tab browsing, loads faster, bigger screen size. Email Client is way way better than Outlook Express. Even has a built in spam filter.

3. Startup Mechanic
Shows you all the programs that are automatically started when you start Windows and categorises them to different categories (Essential, Useful,Useless, Harmfull) and allows you to disable them. Recommended if you think your windows is really slow when you boot up.

4. Spybot Search and Destroy
Searches for and removes spyware on your computer. Some of which load when you start Windows or go online and are a real resource hog. But ff you have programs that have ads e.g. Kazaa Desktop they won't work after this.

Tuesday, November 25, 2003

Went to a friend's place for Hari Raya this morning; man the food was really amazing! Had ayam masak merah and rendang mutton, tell you I almost orgas on the table. I had like 3 pieces of the chicken , wanted to have more but decided to control myself. Spend the rest of the day re-organising my CD collection, my dad just dumped all the CDs and VCDs together and it was really annoying cos I had my albums sorted out alphabetically. But the good thing is I finally found my OK Computer CD !! Been looking for it like for months so it was a big relief. I first heard this album in 1997 but it still amazes me now.

Oh i finally got my 2 CDs from Borders which I ordered like eons ago . First is Things Fall Apart by the Roots and the other is El Cielo by Dredg. Heh but haven't really heard them that much, cos been listening to OK Computer. Will post reviews when I can. Oh and I also bought Men are from Mars Women are from Venus, "the definitive guide to relationships", thanks to a really strong recommendation from a guy friend. Yeah yeah I am getting desperate ok.

i'd tell all my friends but they'd never believe me
they'd think that i'd finally lost it completely
i'd show them the stars, and the meaning of life
they'd shut me away ......but i'd be alright

Subterranean Homesick Alien by Radiohead

Sunday, November 23, 2003

Quiz Me
Gilbert Thomas was
a Lowly Dragon Slayer
in a past life.

Discover your past lives @ Quiz Me

Heh well considering how I am such a huge fan of fantasy fiction it could be true ..

Saturday, November 22, 2003

OK my hiatus from online chatting was short-lived. What to do, when you are at home on a weekend there is only so much porn you can watch before you get bored. So what was the reason for the hiatus you might ask. Well lately I been sorely disappointed by a couple of my so-called "friends". And with the really crappy situation that I am in right now I seriously cannot afford to have any more disappointments. Which was also the reason why I was questioning who my real friends are two posts ago. I think I came to a conclusion today. Friends are friends more for what they do for you rather than what they say to you. Of course words mean a lot as well, but sometimes they aren't enough on their own. Someone can say that they consider me a friend and they actually cared for me, but it would mean a lot more to me if they showed it. And the problem is you can't do that online. And its very easy to type comforting words even if you don't mean them, cos there is no way the other party can tell if you are sincere or not. And I will admit that even I have been guilty of that.

It's getting worse for me now. I am someone who is chatty by nature, and the problem is now I have no choice but to keep silent. I feel like a bird in a really really small cage who doesn't even have space to extend his wings. This feeling is something I never felt b4, and its not something I wanna feel again if had a choice. But unfortunately I am going to, and probably really soon. I am not blogging about this cos I am looking for sympathy. I am blogging about this because I need to.
Ok the bird analogy was a little silly.

Thursday, November 20, 2003

You are Form 3, Unicorn: The Innocent.

"And The Unicorn knew she wasn't meant to
go into the Dark Wood. Disregarding the advice given to her by the spirits, Unicorn went inside and bled silver blood.. For her
misdeed, the world knew evil."

Some examples of the Unicorn Form are Eve
(Christian) and Pandora (Greek).
The Unicorn is associated with the concept of innocence, the number 3, and the element of water.
Her sign is the twilight sun.

As a member of Form 3, you are a curiousndividual. You are drawn to new things and become fascinated with ideas you've never come in contact with before. Some people may say you are too nosey, but it's only because you like getting to the bottom of things and solving them. Unicorns are the best friends to have because they are inquisitive.

Which Mythological Form Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

Well I shouldn't be surprised. After all gals don't call me the Stallion for nothing.
You know the saying "Ignorance is bliss"? I never knew the full meaning of that phrase until very recently. Yeah sometimes it is much easier when you don't know about certain things, for the simple fact that what you don't know cannot affect you. Of course it might sound like denial, and it probably is in a way. But when there is a certain situation that you have to face very often, it really helps when you aren't reminded of the harsh reality, because when you are, it will affect you no matter how much you try not to let it.

Oh I need to get out of the house this Saturday otherwise I will be forced to assume the role of house mover for a "friend" of my dad. No I am not being selfish, it's just someone I really really don't like. *Refrains from using the word 'hate'*

Lately I been thinking about what the word "friend" means. Looked it up at and there was this 2 meanings.

1. A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts.
2. A person whom one knows; an acquaintance.

Pretty interesting because the first definition automatically implies the second one but the opposite is not necessarily true. And also the know part is ambiguous, how well must you know a person before you can call him or her a friend? Or is it just enough to just "know" of the existence of that person?

The reason why I been wondering about this is because lately, friendships that I thought I had either totally evaporated or weren't as real as thought they were. I have always been really quick to call people friends, but now it seems to me I have to choose who I consider a friend with much more caution. Well when I figure it out you will be the first to know.

Oh and I been reading Sophie's World , "a novel about the history of philosophy". Can't say I love it, I have to admit some parts of it are really deep and I tend to get lost until I have no idea what they are talking about. But can't really give an opinion until I finish the whole book.

Tuesday, November 18, 2003

Some people are just unbelievable. I am talking about the contestants of the reality skin flick "Are You Hot?" that is on Channel 5 every Monday at 10pm. The contestants who got rejected for not being hot enough get so upset about it that they cry. 1 person even while sobbing insists that all her friends and family found her hot. Hey if I cried everytime someone told me I wasn't hot, I would be crying every other day. I mean if you gonna cry about something it shouldn't be about the fact that someone whom you don't even know though your ass was too big. Hope they get teased land ridiculed about it by their peers; cos they really deserve it.

Going over to my sister's place later, it's her mom-in-law's birthday today and my mom is cooking ayam masak merah just for her. Heh if you haven't tried it you have no idea what you are missing; it's like my favourite food ever. Also will be nice to catch up with the sis, but only wish we could have some alone time together, that would be nice cos we haven't really talked one to one for a long time.

Monday, November 17, 2003


Bon Jovi: This Left Feels Right
What could be more insipid than Bon Jovi’s greatest hits? Nothing, right? Wrong! These are acoustic re-workings of their greatest hits. The fact that such a thing exists is all the proof we need that Satan is firmly in control here on Earth. So, maybe you wanted to like Bon Jovi but "Livin’ On A Prayer" was a little too rowdy for you. This is surely the collection you need!

Tori Amos: Tales of a Librarian
Ever wanted to listen to a woman whine about being raped for an hour? Let me save you some money by letting you in on a little secret: lots of support groups are free! Actually, that was pretty cold, not all of Tori Amos’s songs are about being raped. Some of them are about having a miscarriage. Either way, this best-of collection is sure to be grabbed up by thousands of brooding teenage girls and their pussywhipped boyfriends.

Heh yes Bon Jovi bashing is one of my fav pastimes. But the Tori Amos bit was a little much though.
Yes I haven't been blogging. Hmm let's see what I been up to .....spend the whole weekend learning how to use Photoshop, extremely frustrating but now I know what layers are so it was good in the way. I also figured out how to save an image without the damm canvas; just save it as gif instead of jpeg. Ok theres probably a way to do it with jpeg but hell as long as it works right. But still struggling with Flash. Was supposed to watch Spanish apartment with a friend but now it is only showing at GV Grand and at one time slot of 2 pm. Quite a waste cos I heard from a lot of people that it was really funny.

Haven't been online much as well; kind of lost interest in online chatting recently, for reasons better left unmentioned.

Wednesday, November 12, 2003

Last night, I had the most wonderful dream I could ever remember having. You cannot imagine the level of disappointment that I felt when I woke up and realised it wasn't real. Let's just say it's something which I really really want to happen to me in real life, but it has a 0.1% chance of happening. Well just hope I can have the same dream again really soon. If only we could control our dreams; dream what we wanted to dream. Ok ok it involves a gal happy !
I have a new found hatred for Photoshop 7 and Flash MX. I am trying to do a Flash presentation , and I need to use images in it. But I don't even know how to save the image as a jpeg file without including the damm canvas in the background. Why the hell is there a crop tool when it doesn't even crop !!!!!!!

Tuesday, November 11, 2003

I got stood up yesterday. I was supposed to watch Matrix Revolutions at the IMAX Cinema at GV Grand with a friend, we planned it like 2 weeks ago. Then 5 hours before we are about to meet she tells me she can't make it because her boyfriend isn't too happy about it. So that left me little choice but to call everyone I knew to ask them if they are free, even those people who I haven't talked in like years. Hey I was desperate ok. One of them even asked who I was, and I was like "Remember me , Gilbert, the guy who sat 10 rows behind you in primary school?"; she hung up. Then there were the many others who said they need to wash their hair. Is Monday like a hair-washing night or something? *confused* Anyway finally I manage to get a friend who was free that night, I was so relieved cos I was really thinking of going to watch alone if I couldn't find anyone. I told her I loved her when she said she will meet me, and she almost changed her mind. Gotta be more careful next time. Thank god I didn't offer to give up to her my precious virginity.

Anyway ended up having a pretty good time, we went to Brewerkz for dinner, I whacked a poretty large pizza cos I didn't have lunch and I also kinda took some of her food. Had this beer called Golden Ale, its this really light beer that has very little bitterness, so if u dun like that bitter beer taste you should give it a try.

Ok now about the movie. Matrix Revolutions was a big disappointment. All the questions I wanted answered were either not answered or answered in 2 sentences. For example, I was curious how it was possible for Zion to be destroyed and rebuilt seven times. Who rebuilt it when it was destroyed each time, if all the humans in Zion were killed? That question was never answered. The question of how Neo could stop the machines in the 'real' world was explained in 2 sentences, which would be fine but it was very unconvincing. I didn't really understand the ending as well but will not give any spoilers here. But the IMAX cinema was really amazing, totally big ass screen I am definitely gonna try and go there again really soon for another movie.

Monday, November 10, 2003

Had a pretty good weekend. Had dinner at OlioDome at Wheelock place with a friend and then went to see the french movie Novo on Saturday night. Oliodome was a pretty nice place, and we got a table by the window which was kinda cool. Definitely wanna go there again. The movie was so-so. The premise was really interesting but the execution was really poor. It got pretty confusing at some points, there were scenes that didn't make sense at all. Anyway its about a guy with short-term memory who hooks up with a gal who falls in love with him, but he can never remember her the next day. She finds its really exciting at first , because when they make love each time it seems like they are making love for the first time. But she finds out about his past history and she realises that she is unable to keep the relationship going because she doesn't believe there can be love without having a history together. Yeah pretty heavy on the romance side. But lots of full frontal nudity, unfortunately that also included the guy. And there was a scene where the guy, totally naked, hugged his son who was like no older than 13, and it really made me uncomfortable. But yeah I guess in Europe, full frontal nudity isn't a big deal, I remember watching 2 other Spanish movies that had those too.

Yesterday I went to see Kill Bill for the 2nd time, yeah in case you haven't figured it out I love that movie a lot. Really can't wait for the 2nd installment, but got no idea when it's gonna be released. Must check that out.

Bought the new Muse album and listening to it now. It reminds me so much of early Radiohead, from the Pablo Honey days, very guitar-oriented and his vocals also quite similar to Yorke sometimes. Sounds really good so far. More comments on it when I listened to it a couple more times.

Skipping lunch today. Suddenly I just lost my appetite. Oh well it's good in a way cos I think I been piling a little bit of weight. Hmm I wonder, since I work through lunch time would that entitle me to leave the workplace earlier?

Saturday, November 08, 2003

It has been a tough week. Thank god for creating this thing called the weekend. But I still got some stuff to do b4 monday. First somehow I need to come up with a Flash presentation thingy, and I got absolutely no experience with flash so its gonna be really interesting. I borrowed the Flash MX book from library so hopefully that will give me a head start.

Really wanted to go out last night, I was supposed to meet my sister last night but she was too tired. Gonna meet her next week but today with another cousin of mine. Who is cool but I actually just wanted to spend some alone time with her and just talk, we haven't done that in a while. Oh well.

Nothing much else to update. Life not very interesting now.

Tuesday, November 04, 2003

Been a really tiring last couple of days, was rushing to get a project done due to some external pressure. Stayed till 9:30 yesterday at the office. k maybe not as late compared to other people but it was kinda creepy cos it was so silent; there was no one around. Anyway I also really wanna get this project off my hands, been working on it for way too long and hopefully I get to move on to something else that will have some interest for me.

Heh I been going around asking people about their views on pre-marital sex; was just curious about what other people thought about it. Had some really very interesting opinions on it and some really surprising revelations as well.

Ooh I got tickets to Matrix Revolutions at GV GRAND at the IMAX theatre on Monday. It's supposed to have like a big ass screen but I haven't been there so looking forward to it. I really loved Reloaded, it left me pondering over tons of questions so I am really looking forward to finally getting the answers.

Going to watch another French movie this sat night, its called Novo and it's about a guy who has short-term memory so he keeps forgetting this gal that he fell in love with. And the gal will desperately try and make him remember for good, yeah sounds pretty romantic right eventhough its a tad Memento-ish. And its R(A) so yeah gonna see some French boobs! Woohoo!! Hmm that reminds me of one of my net friends who wore a french maid outfit in a picture recently......damm she looked hot in it.

Speaking of boobs, I kinda offended someone a few days ago by making a reference to their cleavage in a picture. Yeah that's me, always not knowing where the line is. Really sorry. Must tone down the sex jokes.

Sunday, November 02, 2003

Went to see 'The Frenchmen' ,a French movie about 4 middle-aged guys who were having different problems with their relationships. One cheated on his wife repeatedly with different women, another had a much younger gf who wants to settle down but he was reluctant to, the 3rd found out that his wife cheated on him once and the last didnt have a r/s and shags older women. the movie was so-so , pace was a tad slow for me it seemed like it lasted like 3 hours when it was only 100 minutes long. But I think the movie was trying to show that most marriages have their fair share of problems but the people in the r/s still stay together because of the fear of being alone . The guy who cheats on his wife still does so but the wife accepts that hes screwing other women. The single guy hooks up with a slightly psychotic chick who is like so obsessive over him, the guy with the younger gal ends retiring and up moving in with her , and the guy who got cheated on got back together with his wife.